Today is Memorial Day. Every year I write a post about my fallen brothers MSgt Auckman, SPC Poulin and all the other men and women who have died while serving or have served this country. I am normally pretty proud to stand up and proclaim my patriotism and my support to "never forget" these men and women who fought for my freedoms. I am proud to have served. I am proud to be able to remember the fallen. I am proud to stand and salute the flag and the National Anthem because I served this country.
All that being said, something is different this year. This year, even in my pride, I am not happy. I am actually pretty sad looking at the memes, pictures and memories of fallen men and women all over social media. This last year has forced me to look at patriotism, sacrifice and what it means to defend the Constitution of this country. Even today, having only been out of bed for an hour I have been bombarded with messages that make me question how we got so lost as a nation. I literally expect someone to blame President Obama or President Trump without thought. That is what it is about right now, finger pointing and blame giving. I could write fifty thousands words on all that but that is not what today's blog is about. Today it is about Memorial Day and what I have realized over this last year more and more with each passing day.
The picture you see is from my very last combat deployment of my 22-year military career. At the time of the picture I had no idea if I was going to make it home alive, injured physically or mentally or something else. I was serving my country. My unit had already lost SPC Poulin in a rollover accident and even the SGM had been sent home from his wounds. Here I was traveling in country to be with my unit. What you can't tell is I'm thinking about my family, my friends, my battle buddies wondering if any of us understand what we are doing and why. I serve. I am proud to have served. I am proud to see those who serve and have served before me. I am honored to be their brother-in-arms. All that is in this picture.
Today, though, is Memorial Day and I am wondering about the flag that so many fly and wave around. I wonder about the sacrifices. This is the thing, those sacrifices, that have me writing today because I think we forgot what the men and women actually fought for since the Europeans took over this land. Yes, we cannot ignore the truth of our birth as a nation. This land was taken by force and from it rose what we now proudly call America.
There it is from the beginning of our birth as a nation we missed the point. We are missing it even more so in today's society. Memorial Day for those who sacrificed their lives for our way of life is lost. We built a way of life, a core value (Constitution) and enforced it. Men and women died in support and defense of that very core value.
The Retsil Veteran's Cemetery is on a road a drive often when heading down to take my sunset/sunrise and (hopefully) eagle pictures. One day I drove by and a mist was over it so I stopped and sat for a bit. As I snapped a few pictures I wondered if the men and women buried there would be happy with where we are today. Would they believe their sacrifices were worth it? Would they be proud Americans or disappointed ones? I thought about it. I have not stopped thinking about it. I thought about Auckman and Poulin who never got to see life after the military because of wars overseas (Iraq and Afghanistan specifically). Then I thought about me. What if LS1 Sean L. Brown had been Killed In Action (KIA) in one of those many places he wore his US military uniform defending his country? Would he be proud? Damn, even now that question makes me pause. I know the answer and it still makes me pause. The simple answer is, yes. Yes, I would be proud to have worn my uniforms and give my life for the ideals of this nation. I say that because of what I realized many years ago. That brings me to the point of this blog.
Back in the early 2000's I went home on leave where I got to talking to an old friend from the neighborhood. My friend viewed the military like most government jobs/agencies, as a place dominated by white people, for white people and, more specifically, rich white people. To be truthful that sentiment I've heard a time or two. He asked me, "Why the hell you serving this country that enslaved our people, funneled crack and drugs into our communities and treat us like second class citizens?" My first answer was that if we want to change the way the status quo is we must be part of the change and do our part to be part of the solution. Now, on its own that is a great answer and really what we, as people all over, should be doing to make our world better. However, let me get back on track, that answer wasn't the epiphany. After my buddy and I got done talking I started thinking about it more and had a better answer for myself of why I serve(d) my country.
I, Sean L. Brown, serve my country for the murderers, the rapists, the molesters, the thieves, the abusers, the liars and the worst of the worst in our society. I serve so they would always have the right to fair, honest treatment within our systems. They would have a fair trial if arrested. They would have honest prosecution and a formidable defense. They would be innocent until proven guilty. They would have their rights afforded them by the Constitution.
That is what I came up with in the early 2000's. Over this last few years, since my retirement in 2015, I have revised that to a simpler answer which is what I feel we have lost. I serve for EQUALITY. That is it. That is what the men and women have died for: the equal and fair treatment of EVERY citizen of this nation. That is what is lost. We lost the truth behind our laws. The truth behind our flag. The truth behind the anthem. Every one of them take second seat to the equality of our people.
I honor those who have died by remembering that they died for my right, as a black man, to be considered a full man (not 3/5 of a man) in this country, a woman's right to decide what happens to her body, an immigrant's right to not be persecuted for